All things big and small
I recently finished with a month long project I did pro-Bono for a couple of men who are roughly tied to the movie industry. A boss of someone I know met the men at Sun dance film festival and got them in contact with me over a possible web comic job pending pitch and project funding over at Cannes Film festival going on this week. I am extremely grateful for the recommendation, and Hope this actually leads to some paying full time work. what troubles me now however, Is that my job is over and I am no better off then I was December of last year. Today I reinstalled painter 11 and restored my brush defaults in an attempt to start something new. I opened up the starship picture I had finished months ago and screwed around with it again on and off looking to my favorite pixiv artist for inspiration. I am not totally sure what I will start drawing tomorrow but the words of the people around me echo deep inside my head. “I should stop drawing what I think people want to see and start drawing for me.” You’d think after 10 years this would have gotten easier, but even as the last people I worked with sang my praises, at crunch time the tune had changed. “Are you sure you are the artist? Get the artist that drew that original face.” ” your style is very anime-ish.. maybe that is the problem.” If people want me to be myself, why are the comments so contradictory, and why am I faulted for wanting to change my art style so much? realistically, things were said in a slight panic over the final days of deadline and I shouldn’t hold this slight bit of criticism over anyone’s head. It’s just, well.. I don’t have very thick skin.
As for porn, I want to draw another picture, but I hesitate because I fear of how absurd is would actually look to portray someone being ravished by a starship. The ideas in my head are pretty damn hot, but without considerable effort the visual interpretation would just look like some common tentacle rape porn bullshit you’d find on 4chan etc. As such Ive not really entertained any new porn pictures save for the occasional random woman being fucked by an armored core mech over the warm barrel of a large cannon or something.
Btw got some new mecha art to throw up on the gallery, go check that out.