Disclaimer: The following is just my opinion on certain parts of adult art. I get that “Not all men, Not all women” ect ect. I know that other folks don’t think or even approach kink like I do, but maybe this will give you guys an idea of where I am coming from. Why I draw porn the way I do.
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Been thinking a lot about the conclusion that I am on the Ace (Aesexual) spectrum. A stranger said somewhere that Ace folks make the kinkiest art because they don’t wanna be involved with the deed in real life. The art is then a means to let them explore sexuality in the complete safety of the fantasy world. I would say that this has been 100% the case with me my whole life. I don’t really wanna fuck anyone, but im still horny inside my brain. You can be not mentally attracted to any particular sex, but your physical body just chugs along hoping you will breed anyway. I prefer heterosexual sex, but Het porn at large is pretty awful. Made for an audience of men concerned with taking everything they can from a willing set of holes. Seldom if ever, is a woman’s orgasm even considered.
“The McDonald’s hamburger of human intimacy” (fills you up in the short term, but is devoid of vitamins, and minerals you actually need)
The other day a quick google search led me to R/Teratophilia, a sub reddit about monsters that I lasted about 20 minutes on. Initially I was hopeful I might find tender nonhuman kissey art, maybe some truly weird eldritch beings with non standard anatomy. There might have actually been some tender kissey half buried in that mountain, but this was a public forum. The hardcore kink stuff far far outweighed the sort of tender erotic subject matter I was looking for. (I want some eye contact, some hand-holding, cuddles to go with my dickings fgs!) The way people treated terato in that place, was just as interchangeable to any other hentai group I’ve glanced upon. A skin for the same types of humiliation/noncon/dominance/kink that you can get virtually anywhere. I stay away from Robot kink places for a similar reason. A ton of folks who say they love machines, then depict them getting their internals ripped out, the limbs partially dismembered, or machines treated as a lesser being in the exchange. (Yeah nothing says “I love you” like barely contained Guro ).
Makes me wonder why outsiders say that I’m this brutal hard core artist simply for choosing a war machine, or a dragon. The only hard core thing about me is that I like big fantasy monster dicks, but most importantly, big fantasy dicks that don’t hurt anyone. I do not like depictions of suffering for someone else’s pleasure. I do not like pictures of disrespect on a sex partner, I do not like art that shows lack of consent, fantasy or not. (Even the Wyverns communicate with their Riders Via the kinship stone! Some MH lore for you. )
how did I get here?
Gentle giants (mostly machines) that had all the capacity in the world to destroy, yet stay their hand for tenderness is the ultimate flavor. If you have never felt comfortable around others, if you are analogous to the monster for your “otherness”, then the small somewhat perfectly acceptable human laying with you in total sincerity is hot as fuck. Its like you forgiving yourself for your imperfections. I’m over 6 feet tall, I wear a mans 13 shoe, pcos issues have made me into a less than ideal monster myself. So this is what it means to me: I am both. I am the monster who forgives the human, and the weak tiny human who forgives the monster for being misunderstood. In this small sacred space there is no room for “McDonalds porn bullshit”.
When one side is a death dealing machine entity covered in armor and warheads, it becomes a protective incredibly masculine force in the relationship. A powerful figurehead without all the exploitation that comes with regular porn. This is where I am most comfortable. In the case where the human is a man, I introduce a super strong motherly non human monster woman that cannot be taken advantage of in the same way.
Some people think I don’t like Gay people because I don’t draw gay porn. On the contrary, Gay has nothing to do with anything. Its just coincidentally the fact gay men 100% engage in anal sex. I vehemently dislike anal because of the way it’s been portrayed in het porn on women in straight relationships. Turns out that up to 72% of women (and 15% of men) experience moderate to severe pain during anal and don’t say anything to their partners because its expected of them. “sex is just something you endure for a man’s pleasure” : https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25648245/
(granted, gay men have a prostate that can be stimulated. Their is a use case for the act in gay porn)
But why the fuck would you ever sign up for something that causes moderate to severe pain in the name of intimacy? (Im looking at the remaining 28% of you kinky women) combine this with the sentiment that a small % of people hold that “Anal is what you do to punish women” (read this on a forum 15 years back) and now I can only view certain sex acts as something you do when you don’t really care about the other person. (Like depictions of men making women choke or vomit on huge dicks, are a form of sexual violence)
My monsters don’t hurt the men, or women. They don’t ask for acts of sex that cause discomfort (and are totally anthropocentric let’s be honest).
Those huge robot dongs you see on this webpage? They are adjustable for maximum pleasure. I fucking thought of everything, yet I am the hardcore freak? I disagree.
To the truly weird kinksters out there, the women shoving french fries, and chicken bones up their cunt? The young men attracted to the varicose vens on the legs of 90 year olds? Their colorful existence proves that there is a kind of porn for everyone who dares to dream, Even the folks out there who like shitty painful brutal porn acts. I’m just not one of them.
(Artist for this meme is unknown. I will try to find their name)
Now in my 40’s, come to the conclusion I am also Ace as far as other humans are concerned. All the characters I am attracted to are non-human in nature as well. And finding good hetero art is hard. Tumblr used to be the shit but it has lost so much after the purge. There’s a little coming back for a few fandoms but nothing like it was. In any case, this is why I’ve been lurker-following you for many years!
I 100% vibe with this. My favorite stuff is the stuff where there isn’t pain and suffering. I want there to be comfort in that, pleasure, and meeting of souls, so to speak. Your comic stuff, this stuff, all the stuff. I like it, love it, enjoy it from the perspective of wanting to be there, even if your setting has some grim aspects.
@Lorventus: they are just big metal guys and gals! They want to hold us and count the rhythm of our heart beats. Big sweeties they are <3. (i guess I got a comic to finish?)
I love your art more than any other anthro/living machine art I’ve seen. BECAUSE I can see the intimacy past the sex. The way you draw eyes and caressing hands is way more personal than the hot slop from reddit pages. I’m glad you draw what you draw. And in very happy you’re continuing to discover more about yourself and put yourself into your art.
@Tulip Snow: how many anthro/LM artists have you come across btw? Like old school Hank caruso, Disney, Deymo ect? (Russian artists?) Or the new Aeromorph stuff, Disney Car’s style hold-outs? Its hard to find SFW stuff, and the Nsfw stuff is mostly pin up “look at muh dick!!!!” Stuff.
Hard to find any subtext.
Let me know if you find anyone cool tho— ::hands toghether in a bow::
I agree. Most porn is usually so obviously acted, and indeed with a submissive undertone.
I’ve been a victim of sexual abuse myself at the age of 17, so those machos with their forcing attitude get me infuriated enough to see a red haze before my eyes.
That, plus the fact that men always criticize women (in my case, I am extremely tall and skinny), both direct AND behind the back, make me unable to relax during sex. I remain ‘on guard’, even during orgasm.
Those big, dangerous machines use their incredible power to protect me, to make me theirs, to impress and seduce me the way male animals impress their females: just as nature intended in ancient times.
And because they know their own size and power, they are tender and careful with a woman, even with a tall skinny one.
With those big mechanical turn-ons, I am able to relax and enjoy the full experience!
@Galileo tbh you sound a lot like me. Encounters with men have always sent me into a mode where I emotionally float outside of my body, and watch “2 pink mongrels do the dishes, or change a tire”. I was never there emotionally because I couldn’t be guaranteed that the guy wasn’t just “settling to get his dick wet” in light of physical issues. I wished to know if being with me wasn’t just a charity case he was going to discuss with his bros later. Huge trust issues that weren’t anybodies fault but none the less a part of an overactive brain. I did my best to make sure they were happy because I was in love with their personality, their candor. But cumming came so much easier with a strange fantastical machine friend who encouraged the event step by step in a way that helped me let my guard down (de-mystify physical pleasure). Actually If you dissect the Porn Lore, youl find that the G.Neuron facilitates the ability to link minds to provide some otherworldly reassurance of each other’s authenticity in the moment. None of that stuff I invented in this porn was random. Some of it was to assail general fears about sex. And yes, they do protect their tiny human gals 😉
I definitly agree with this sentiment, I really dont understand why people who make porn that has the 2 characters loving and caring for eachother is so rare..
@cathode: it could be that most of the people who enjoy porn are men. Men are far less emotional then women. I don’t really want to believe its true, but Another reason is that depicting intimacy means you need to see the guys face in porn. that ruins the watchers ability to insert themselves into the body of the faceless penis doing the pounding. With no face attached, the cock being worshiped is your own.
I am with you on a lot of this, especially the lack of affection and intimacy in much of the available terato work. It’s interesting hearing your take on a lot of it, since i’m not ace but have ace friends and have learned a fair bit about it over the last few years. Your art has been stuck in my mind in terms of consensual and emotional teratophilia for a looooong time, a rarity to be sure!
Edit: Oh, and the artist for the meme seems to be Kayla-Na, from what I could find! (link goes to that artist’s upload on FA)
She dropped the name Kayla-na some years ago, now she goes as ebonychimera.
Qwin: thanks for enjoying this stuff. I’ll keep trying to make it as it is one of the few subjects in art that raise up my pulse. It’s a little bit harder for me to recommend you other artists since I have left X and FA altogether. Was talking with a long time visitor about how hard it is to find this stuff, you used to be able to get a lot of it on tumblr before the first great purge. After that, a wave of art impersonators were the death knell of his favorites. So many artists get messed with and they disappear underground where you are lucky to ever find them again. (kayla-Na is on e621 too) one of these days, i should go through my phone and post what i have, but it will bother some folks that I dont have names to go with much of the work.